MY STORY by Marilyn Chambers

mystoryPUBLISHING INFO: BearManor Media, 7/2014, updated
GENRE: Nonfiction/Memoir/Pornography

FROM PUBLISHER: The intimate, uncensored reissued erotobiography that is pure-as-Ivory Snow. The sexy girl next door who turned on the world talks openly in detail about her fantasies and what turns her on. Twenty-six pages of personal photos of the star of Behind the Green Door and The Resurrection of Eve.

MY THOUGHTS: This autobiography started out good with all the stuff you'd expect in one. Where she grew up, what her childhood was like, how she got into the sex business, and so on but damn, it's a nonstop sex fest and I got so sick of reading it, and it's a short book...couldn't wait for it to end. Literally almost every single page was just graphic sexual ramblings of how horny she is. We get it, Marilyn, you like sex, but your filthy language was too much.

The page count for the original publication of this book was around 200 and nineteen of those was taken up by sexually graphic fan mail letters she received, which I didn't care at all about. Another twelve pages was taken up by letters people wrote to her for her sex advise column in Genesis magazine in the 70's. Total waste of space.

There's a three-page forward by her daughter that was really pointless and unnecessary and just a two-page afterward/epilogue. Since this book was written thirty-nine years before the reissue in 2014, the epilogue should have been at least a chapter long and should have been written by someone who actually knows something about her and could have given some useful, interesting information on the woman, who is a legend in the porn world.

Wikipedia has more info on her, like her drug addition that wasn't even mentioned in the epilogue, and her death in 2009.

You can read her adult fimography here.

You can read my review for her 1980 porn Insatiable here.

Same review here.

I received this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.

DEATH OF INNOCENCE: The True Story of an Unspeakable Teenage Crime by Peter Meyer

deathofinnocencePUBLISHING INFO: Berkley, 7/1986
ORIGINAL PUB: Putnam, 4/1985
GENRE: Nonfiction/True Crime/Rape/Murder
SETTING: Vermont, 1981

FROM PUBLISHER: One early spring day, two young girls took a short-cut home from school through the woods. Then in a few horrifying moments, the tranquility of the day was shattered by rape, torture and murder. A small Vermont town and the entire nation was stunned - these gruesome crimes had been committed not by hardened criminals but by two young boys, fifteen and sixteen years old.

One of America's finest investigative journalists, Peter Meyer, recounts this provocative true story of terror in the small Vermont town of Essex Junction. He powerfully recreates this tragic case and its complex emotional aftermath - the statewide manhunt, the trial, and the chilling results that sent one teenage killer to prison for life and set the other free after two and a half years. Here is the shocking story.

BOOK SUMMARY: On Friday May 15, 1981, twelve-year old friends Melissa Walbridge and Meghan O'Rourke, almost nine months apart in age, were raped, and one was murdered, by teenage friends, fifteen-year old Jamie Savage, and sixteen-year old Louis 'Louie' Hamlin. Both girls were very thin and under 5' tall.

Both girls were raped, sodomized, shot multiple times with a BB gun (Melissa was shot through the eye), strangled, and stabbed multiple times. A stab through the heart is what killed Melissa, the older of the two, born 7/17/68. Meghan survived because she's passed out and Jamie and Louie though she was dead, so they left her and put an old mattress over her and Melissa's bodies. Meghan came to, and walked out of the woods, naked and bleeding badly. A flagman working a few yards away at the railroad tracks, Alton Bruso, saw her, ran over to her, she asked for help, and he and a few coworkers, Howard Constantine and Alfred Laidman, called the police. From a distance Alton thought Meghan was wearing a red bathing suit, she was that bloody.

It took just over a week to find Jamie and Louie. Neither showed any remorse and neither seems to have a conscience.

After they were arrested and Louie's house was searched, officers found in the basement a lot of pornographic photos of Louie's fifteen-year old sister, Lisa, that her father had taken. She said he'd been molesting her since she was four and told her she'd only have to 'do it' until she was eighteen. Louie and his older brother said they'd been molested by their father too. The father, Butch, got a prison sentence of only 6-15 years for molesting Lisa, so he's been out a really long time. I don't know if he was questioned about molesting his other children.

Louis- Born 10/29/64. He's 5'7", stocky, very dark hair with thick eyebrows and a unibrow. He's been violent his whole life. He didn't say how long he'd been molested by his father. He came from a poor family. There was no mention of what his IQ was. He's the second oldest of five children, and was born to teenage parents. At the time of his arrest he was on probation for assaulting a college girl, Candy Hackett, four months before. She was walking along one day when Louie showed up beside her. She got scared so engaged him in conversation in hopes he wouldn't hurt her and it worked for awhile. He later confessed to the author via telephone from prison that he'd intended to rape Candy.

Almost two years before killing Melissa, days before his fifteenth birthday, he'd been arrested for attempting to rape his thirteen-year old sister, Lisa. One day at home he forced her to get naked, he got naked too and laid on top of her but didn't penetrate her. She told their mother and the mother called the police. I don't understand why Lisa told on him yet didn't tell on her father for molesting her for years.

He was sentenced to life with the possibility of parole after 45 years, which was the maximum sentence he could have been given. He was imprisoned in Missouri, then Wisconsin though I don't know where he's currently incarcerated nor can I find an inmate photo. He'll be 51 this October.

Jamie- Born 9/20/65. He's blond, 6' tall, lanky with acne pitting on his face. He has a low IQ of only 78, which is 'borderline impaired to delayed'. He reads at the first grade level. There was no mention of physical or sexual abuse in his past. He's violent too, at least with his siblings, but there was never any attempted rape. I don't think he actually raped Meghan though he tried but said his penis wouldn't fit. I wish who did what had been made a bit more clear.

He was released from a juvenile facility when he turned eighteen in 1983. He has no prison record and his crimes have been erased from the records since he was under the age of sixteen when the crimes were commited.

An Arizona newspaper headline from May 1984 read 'You can rape, and you can kill, and then you can move to Arizona and change your name'. That's the first time anyone knew where Jamie was located since he was arrested. It was rumored that after his arrest he was sent to Pennsylvania to serve his measly two year sentence. Maricopa County Superior Courts (Arizona) records showed that in December 1983, shortly after his release, he'd applied to have his name legally changed and his wish was granted the following month. His name was changed to John W. Barber. He'd lived with someone for a short time in an apartment in Arizona and after moving, left a forwarding address in Vermont. He'll be 50 this September.

In 1984 Jamie's twenty-year old brother was murdered. You can read about that here.

MY THOUGHTS: This was a really well written book. I learned of it by searching older true crime books at Amazon very recently. Jamie and Louis's backgrounds were explored, as were the backgrounds of the parents.

Unfortunately there aren't any photos of Jamie, Louie, or Melissa in it but there are online newspaper articles with Jamie and Louie in them, but they're hard to make out. I wish the author had interviewed the parents of Jamie and Louie.

You can see Melissa's grave here.
This story was done on Killer Kids in 2011. It's season 1, episode 3. 7:30 into the episode this story starts. You can watch it here. The author is interviewed for it.

You can read the case summary at Valley News.
In 2007 Melissa's younger brother, Judd, was arrested for sexual assault. You can see his photo here. I found a Vermont television station's post on Facebook from 2012 advertising a 'where are they now' update on the case but couldn't find the actual update video so I have no idea what's going on with anyone involved with the case.

EDIT: I did find a story from 2013 that the station did. It says that Meghan is living a 'full rich life'. It says too that Louie has been in a Colorado prison since 2000 but I can't find him listed on the Colorado Department of Corrections site.


buriedPUBLISHING INFO: Beaufort Books, 4/2015
ORIGINALLY PUB: Titletown Publishing, 2/2013
GENRE: Nonfiction/Memoir/True Crime
SETTING: New York & Pennsylvania

FROM PUBLISHER: In 1992, nine-year-old Katie Beers was kidnapped by a family friend and locked in an underground box for 17 days. Katie has now come forward to tell the story that created a national media storm as reporters uncovered the truth about her pre-kidnapping life of neglect and sexual abuse and the details of her rescue. She shares how this experience and the recent death of her kidnapper, John Esposito, has affected her life. Despite the horrible reality of Katie's days of being chained in darkness, the kidnapping was, in fact, the climactic end of a tragic childhood and the beginning of a new life. Katie breaks her silence and reveals her inspiring healing process to the journalist who covered the story of the disappearance more than twenty years ago. "Buried Memories" is the only source that includes the complete details of her traumatic childhood, transcriptions of recordings from Esposito, a first-hand account of how Katie felt after Esposito's death in 2013, and Katie's hopeful view of the future as she looks back into her dark past.

MY THOUGHTS: What a disturbing read. I like that the narration shifts from Katie to Carolyn Gusoff, who was a television reporter who actually covered Katie's case. We get more than one person's perspective on the story. One chapter will be written by Carolyn and will be about her experiences with reporting on this case at the time it was happening, and the next chapter will be written by Katie, and so on throughout the entire book. The revised edition has a few extra chapters with both authors. I thought it was very well written and informative, honest and very sad. There were many black and white photos of most of the people talked about in the book, peppered throughout the book.

The only thing that could have made this book better is if Katie's mother, brother, and piece of sh!t godmother had been interviewed for this. I really would have liked to hear what her brother had to say about his own childhood. A pretty brief summary on this case can be found at Wikipedia. You can see interviews with Katie on Youtube.

This case is similar to one from the 1970's involving a fourteen-year old boy named Paul Martin Andrews.

I received this from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.

DECORUM by Kaaren Christopherson

decorumPUBLISHING INFO: Kensington, 3/2015
GENRE: Historical Fiction
SETTING: America/New York, 1890-91

FROM PUBLISHER: In 1890s New York, beautiful, wealthy Francesca Lund is an intriguing prospect for worthy suitors and fortune hunters alike. Recently orphaned, she copes by working with the poor in the city's settlement movement. But a young woman of means can't shun society for long, and Francesca's long-standing acquaintance with dashing Edmund Tracey eventually leads to engagement. Yet her sheltered upbringing doesn't blind her to the indiscretions of the well-to-do...

Among the fashionable circle that gathers around her there are mistresses, scandals, and gentlemen of ruthless ambition. And there is Connor O'Casey--an entirely new kind of New Yorker. A self-made millionaire of Irish stock, Connor wants more than riches. He wants to create a legacy in the form of a luxury Madison Avenue hotel--and he wants Francesca by his side as he does it. In a quest that will take her from impeccable Manhattan salons to the wild Canadian Rockies, Francesca must choose not only between two vastly different men, but between convention and her own emerging self-reliance.


Francesca is pretty ordinary. Of the three main females, Fran, Nell, and Blanche, she was my least favorite. She's twenty-eight, blonde, and lives with a slightly older married couple in New York. She's still grieving the loss of her parents and brother, who died in a boating accident.

Edmund Tracey is an auburn-haired, blue-eyed man in his early thirties who's been after Fran's money for five years. They plan to marry. He's a very violent man and his dark secrets come out.

Nell Ryder is a married woman in her early thirties who he's having an affair with. She supports him financially. Unfortunately she gets to see firsthand his violent temper, as does Francesca.

Blanche Alvarado is a black-haired, brown-eyed widow. Not only does she have a sexual relationship with Edmund, but she has one with Connor O'Casey as well.

Connor O'Casey is an Irish immigrant in his early forties who's made his fortune in mining. He takes a liking to Francesca and peruses her.


Those are the five main characters. I like bad, evil characters who are up to no good so I really liked Edmund, Nell, and Blanche too, to an extent. I think the Edmund/Nell storyline could have gone on much longer than it did, possibly till the very end of the story. It was the most interesting part of the entire novel but it ended too abruptly for my liking.

Francesca was terribly dull to read about and I didn't care much at all about Connor. I don't see where his attraction to Francesca came from nor do I understand why he wants to marry her so badly and laid out all the reasons she should marry him. I never felt she was attracted to him. They're an odd paring, in my opinion.

Once things with Edmund came to an end two-thirds into the story, I'm sad to say I lost interest. I didn't like anything at all about the last third of the story. Francesca and a few others traveling to Canada near the end did nothing at all for the story. Bringing Blanche back during that time was just strange and her occupation just didn't seem plausible.

There wasn't any sex or bad language in this.

There was hardly any background info on anyone at all and that's just not acceptable. On the author's website you can see the characters and learn about their backgrounds by reading the fictional The O'Casey Chronicle. Very cool idea!

Now for the aesthetics- The book cover is slightly textured and very pretty. You can read about the cover's painting here. The pages of this paperback have uneven edges, which I've just learned are called 'deckled edges' and are meant to make the book look old, as deckled edges were how most books were in the 19th century. I don't like how they look and it was very difficult to turn each page by thumb.

I received this from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.

HUNTING A PSYCHOPATH: The East Area Rapist / Original Night Stalker Investigation - The Original Investigator Speaks Out by Richard Shelby

huntingPUBLISHING INFO: Booklocker, 9/2014
GENRE: Nonfiction/True Crime
SETTING: California, 1970's-1980's

FROM PUBLISHER: Hunting A Psychopath chronicles the ongoing search for the identity of the serial rapist and murderer known both as the East Area Rapist and Original Night Stalker. The author first lays the groundwork for how the investigation was conducted. Then using what reports are still available, plus some personal insights, he examines each assault in the order they occurred. Gradually the methods used by the EAR/ONS in first searching out his victims, then stalking them, come to light.

The EAR/ONS first surfaced in June, 1976, in Sacramento, CA. He was last heard from in May, 1986, in Irvine, CA, where he brutally murdered an eighteen year old woman. In between those years he stayed busy, assaulting fifty-three people, and murdering twelve more, while spreading a blanket of fear across central CA and parts of Southern CA. It has been over thirty years now and still he has not been brought to justice.

Perhaps this continuing interest is because those wanting to involve themselves in the investigation know it can still be brought to a satisfactory conclusion.

MY THOUGHTS: Richard was a detective on this case from the start and tells of his experience with the EAR's victims and suspects. I learned of a few men who were suspects at the time of the crimes, such as Art Pinkton, William Boren, 'Jamison', and so on. Some were cleared by DNA in the 2000's. There were chapters at the end, each dedicated to a few other suspects and I enjoyed learning about them.

Not too much info was given for each of the rapes, likely because that had been covered in a previous EAR book. I'd have liked to have read interviews with some of the victims. A couple of them have been interviewed for EAR documentaries.

It's still unknown to this day who the EAR is and still unknown if he's dead or alive. Police do have his DNA and I have no doubt that he'll be identified before too long.

Mr. Shelby's written a great, informative book on this case. Anyone who's interested in the EAR should be thrilled to read this.

Listen to what is believed to be EAR's voice here. He made this call to one of his rape victims.

Please watch the documentaries below.

MSNBC Investigates 'Deadly Behavior' episode.

E!'s THS Investigates from 2009.

I.D.'s (Investigation Discovery) Dark Minds, season 2, episode 1, from 2013.

There are several websites dedicated to his monster:, Casebook of the Bedroom Killer, The Quester Files.

There's an informative discussion board dedicated to the case, ear/ons/gsk, here. Ear-ons has a complete listing of all EAR's crimes, link.

Here's an article Michelle McNamara did on EAR for L.A. Magazine.

I received this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.


Car Wash Angels 2STUDIO: VCA
LENGTH: 135 minutes

FROM DVD: Four years ago Car Wash Angels shot out of the cannon as the definitive Jim Holliday movie. It has since become one of the largest sellers of the decade. Now it's time to return to the wacky Burton Allen Institute for the sequel and find that Dr. Elvis T. Melble and his trading card collection are missing. His long lost sons (Elvis Jr. and Montgomery C. Melble) join in on the search, while the Car Wash division goes mobile. What viewers will care more about are the 33 girls and the 12 high impact sex scenes, guaranteed to give you double your money's worth…. Will Bobbi Bliss and Anita Cannibal both be able to deep throat the monstrous Julian?? Watch the always hot Renee LaRue in her first on-screen anal. To top it all off, only the second and last all-three-holes-filled scene Jill Kelly will ever appear in - with Evan Stone, Julian and a surprise 3rd party. The sequel to the classic will not disappoint true porn fans.

SCENE 1: Chloe's on her hands and knees on the bed blowing Evan, who's standing by the bed. He eats her ass as she fingers herself. He fucks her in the ass while she lays on her back, right leg over his shoulder. She has an orgasm with zero vaginal/clitorial stimulation. She gets on top, reverse cowgirl anal, and has another orgasm. Anal from behind and she comes again. He comes on her back.

SCENE 2: This was a boring outdoor lesbian scene between Bobbi and Syndee that I quickly skimmed through.

SCENE 3: Devin, who's supposed to be a handyman at the institute, walks into Shayla's room. She's sleeping on the bed. She wakes up, he asks her some personal questions then she lays back and he eats her pussy. She gets on all fours and he eats her asshole from behind. Devin stands by the bed, she sits on it in front of him, pulls his denim overalls down and blows him. She gets on all fours on the bed, he spits on her asshole and rubs his dickhead over it and fucks her ass crack. She gets on top of him, facing him for awhile, then turns around without breaking contact for reverse cowgirl. She rubs her clit and comes. She lays on her stomach while he fucks her, the puts it in her ass. He comes on her disgusting right foot and she licks some of it off.

SCENE 4: Jill and Julian are sitting on a mattress in a truck bed, chatting. She blows him, they 69, then her fucks her on her back. They stand up, she leans against the back window and he fucks her from behind. Reverse cowgirl, then she kneels and he comes on her face, chest, and hair.

SCENE 5: Renee and Evan are chatting in his office. She sits on his desk, she kneels in front of her, pushes her dress up, and eats her pussy. She lays back more and he eats her asshole. She kneels in front of him as he leans back against the desk and blows him. Reverse cowgirl, her rubbing her clit, then anal reverse cowgirl on sofa, her still rubbing her clit until she comes. She lays back against the sofa while sitting on the floor, he stands beside her and comes on her chest.

SCENE 6: Bobbi and Anita are wearing bikinis when the go over to Julian's stand at the car wash. They take turns blowing him.

SCENE 7: Barett and Devin are talking in some room. She sits on the desk, he kneels and eats her pussy. She leans forward on the desk. left leg up on it, he's licking her asshole, the fucks her pussy, then ass. Anal reverse cowgirl on desk. She squirted a little but it just dribbled out. Or maybe she just pissed herself a little, who knows.

SCENE 8: Julie walks into the room and goes over to both Barett and Devin in scene 7. Devin's sitting on the desk and they both blow him. Barett leaves the room and Julie continues to blow him. She's naked from the waist down, leaning over the desk, left leg up on it, Devin fucking her from behind. Anal in same position. He picks her up without breaking contact with her ass, sits himself down in a chair and she continues to fuck him anally in reverse cowgirl position.

SCENE 9: Jill tells Shayla about a dream she had involving an all-girl orgy starring:  Allysin Chaynes, Anita Cannibal, Brooke Hunter, Charmane Star, Chaz Vincent, CleoNichole, Daisy Chain, Gina Ryder, Inari Vachs, Kimberly Jade, Salina del Ray, Temptress, Tracy Love, Victoria Evans, Violet Love.

SCENE 10: Ron Jeremy and Bobbi are talking in his office, him behind the desk. She leans across his desk, he gets behind her and eats her pussy. He sits on the floor, she kneels between his legs and blows him for awhile. He sits on the desk and she continues to blow him. Cowgirl position vaginal sex on black sofa, then she turns around, back facing him, without breaking contact and continues to ride him for a long time. Doggie position next. He comes on her right foot, she sits on the back of the sofa and licks it off.

SCENE 11: Angela, Jill, and Felecia are outside on a blanket wearing bikinis. At one point Angela used a dildo in Jill's ass while using a vibrator in Felecia's ass at the same time.

SCENE 12: Jill and Tabitha are naked on the bed eating each other out. Evan stands on the bed and they both blow him. Tabitha rides him then turns around, reverse cowgirl, rubbing her clit a lot. Both blow Julian, then he fucks Jill on her back. He lays back and she gets on top. Jill blows him while Evan fucks her ass from behind and Tabitha uses a dildo in Jill's pussy at the same time. Jill gets on top of Julian, Tabitha standing over his face, facing Jill, Jill eating her pussy. Evan gets behind Jill while she's still on Julian and fucks her ass. Tabitha puts her ass in Jill's face and Jill eats it. Jill lays on her back and both guys come on her.

MY THOUGHTS: This wasn't anything special. It was the sequal to Car Wash Angels 1. It was filmed in August 1999 and you could definitely tell it was the late 90's because of the clothes and hairstyles...and awful breast implants, which most of these women had. I didn't even try to follow along with the plot and couldn't begin to tell you what it was.

I don't think the sex scenes were long enough. The only one I can say I really liked was the one with Ron and Bobbi, specifically reverse cowgirl on the sofa.


sekaPUBLISHING INFO: BearManor Media, 9/2013
GENRE: Autobiography

FROM PUBLISHER: Seka—The Platinum Princess, the Marilyn Monroe of Porn, the queen of XXX cinema’s Golden Age, and John Holmes’ favorite leading lady. Seka is a legendary performer in the annals of adult cinema, and many would say the greatest. Seka’s name was so big in XXX that her name above the title was not enough—her name had to be in the title!

Seka’s real life story, though, is as enigmatic as her screen persona. She was never a victim—on-screen or off. This is no tale of remorse, abuse, or self-destructive behavior. Seka was post-feminist before the term was born. Inside Seka is the story of a survivor, a trailblazer, and an icon—still one of the most popular and famous porn stars ever; the last of the natural beauties.

MY THOUGHTS: Seka (Dorothiea 'Dottie' Hundley) is very honest and blunt. She's not very humble and is a touch arrogant when it comes to her looks and popularity. Despite that I like her a lot. She was a true porn star in the seventies through the mid-80's. Her career came to a halt when AIDS came on the scene heavily. She wanted to use condoms but the production companies didn't want to so she left but ended up making a few more films after that. She was never very responsible with her finances.

Her life has been pretty interesting. I got a bit tired of hearing about the nonporn celebrities she's met over the years. She's childless and has been happily married to Carl, husband number two, since the 2000's. She didn't mentioned why she never had kids. Did she just never want any or did she never find the right man to settle down with? She didn't say.

There are many black and white photos peppered throughout the book including a few topless ones. Thankfully she never got implants. She did have three breast lifts.

She did an interview to promote her book in September 2013. There's more info about her films here.

I received this from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.


temptingPUBLISHING INFO: Aphrodisia, 7/29/14
GENRE: Historical Erotic Fiction
SETTING: England, 1827
SERIES: The Sinners Club, #2

FROM PUBLISHER: Within the circles of British intelligence, Benedict, Lord Keyes, is known for his cold brilliance and strict military demeanor. Yet this icy exterior masks a man of smoldering passion and scorching sexuality who will do anything to keep his past a secret. . .

Miss Malinda Keyes refuses to be intimidated by Lord Keyes. In fact, she enjoys a good battle, especially one of erotic wiles and carnal cunning. Determined to expose his lordship's past, she will use every wanton weapon in her arsenal to tease and tempt this sinner into the ultimate sensual surrender. . .

MY THOUGHTS: The synopsis doesn't really tell you what this book is about so I'll explain. Benedict, 36, with blond hair and blue eyes, has been estranged from Malinda, 35, with red hair and hazel eyes, for eighteen years. They grew up together and married when they were seventeen and eighteen. Ben's father forced them apart because he felt Malinda was beneath his son, so he made up a horrible lie to scare/run Malinda off. Malinda thought they were divorced this whole time, I'm not sure why, but they weren't. They reunite and rediscover their love for each other. I found both of them to be bland. There's a mystery they're trying to solve about who killed her father years ago. I'm sorry to say I was completely uninterested in that, which was the entire plot. Honestly, I couldn't wait for this story to end. It's completely different than the first in the series, which I couldn't get enough of.

I liked the explicit sex scenes and there were over twenty of them. There were two m/m scenes, one threesome, a few scenes between others at the Sinners Club, and the rest were just between Malinda and Ben. I'd have liked more m/m scenes. In fact, I'd like a future Sinners Club novel to have only m/m scenes.

It needs to be made more clear in each book in the series just what the Sinners Club is, exactly. It's more than a sex club for ex-military people. I couldn't get a feel of the layout of the establishment either.

There was one interesting thing in this story and it had to do with a teenaged girl named Doris, who lives with Malinda. I didn't see that revelation coming and I'm disappointed that we didn't get to see how it played out.

I received this from the publisher in exchange for an honest review. Same review here.

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BEYOND SCANDAL by Brenda Joyce

beyondddPUBLISHING INFO: Avon, 10/1995
GENRE: Historical Romance
SETTING: England, 1856
SERIES: St. Georges, #1

FROM PUBLISHER: Adoring and innocent, Anne Stewart was seduced by Dominick Saint Georges, Viscount Lyons, then brazenly abandoned on their wedding night. Now four years have passed, and England's most mysterious lord has returned to Waverly Hall.

Anne can never forgive Dominick for the shame he caused her. She is determined to resist his advances and ignore the gossip and speculations surrounding them, but shocking revelations and deadly intrigues are drawing her ever closer to her enigmatic husband, to whom she dares not surrender again - his secretive stranger who holds the key to her survival and her heart.

MY THOUGHTS: What an emotional rollercoaster Anne and Dom are on. The story seemed like it spanned just a few months. Anne is from America and is twenty-one. She went to live with relatives in England when she was eleven. She has blue eyes and black hair. She's loved Dom since she first met him when she was an adolescent and is very hurt that he's abandoned her for four years, the entire length of their marriage. I have no idea why he did that to her. Dom is twenty-eight, has golden hair and golden eyes. I got a little tired of them not getting along and the misunderstandings. That alone was a bit boring. What was very interesting was the mysterious things that were happening to Anne. Several people had a grudge against her and they were leaving cryptic clues for her alone to let her know they were behind the scary incidents.

Anne is too passive. Dom is alright except for the fact that he has two illegitimate children by his mistress of five years. It's unclear if he had that mistress, or any others, while married to Anne. I'm assuming he did. Adding those kids to the story was unappealing to me and didn't really serve a purpose.

The cousins Anne's lived with since she was eleven, Felicity and her brother Patrick, were a disturbed pair and I enjoyed them in the story. I didn't really like Dom's mother, Clarisse, too much. She's a bitter, jealous woman, same as Felicity.

Things got a bit convoluted toward the end when Dom found out about his paternity and who's behind the shenanigans.

NEVER CALL IT LOVE by Veronica Jason

never call it lovePUBLISHING INFO: Signet, 12/1978
GENRE: Historical Romance
SETTING: England/Ireland/W. Indies/America, 1778
TIMESPAN: 5-6 years

FROM PUBLISHER: When beautiful young Elizabeth Montlow lost her innocence it was not on a night of romantic dreams. It was in an act of savage violence by a man seeking vengeance.

Yet from this brutal beginning came an all-consuming passion that would take Elizabeth from the sheltered eighteenth-century English countryside to a lonely manor in Ireland, where she was forced to share her man with his ravishing and ruthless mistress... to a nightmare exile on a lush and licentious Caribbean island, where lust and murder went hand in hand... to the depths of the lawless American wilderness, where two men played a monstrous game of heart-wrenching deception with her as the stake...

MY THOUGHTS/SPOILERS: This didn't live up to my expectations at all. I learned of it at least five years ago online from someone who said it reminded her a bit of Stormfire. There were just a couple similarities, like hero and heroine's nationality, rape, hero being a smuggler, ect., but the plotlines/core of the story were dissimilar.

Elizabeth is twenty-three, dark brown hair, gray eyes, and is from England. I found Elizabeth to be very bland and passive. Patrick is from Ireland but lives in England, is tall and thin, has a 'dark' complexion, brown hair, brown eyes, and is thirty-two. He's been smuggling arms, cannons, and muskets for ten years. The story begins and ends in England, 1778-1783.

The first 100 pages of the story were the best of all and were mostly about Elizabeth's eighteen-year old disturbed brother, Christopher, the blond Golden Child. Christopher and his friends were wearing masks when they kidnapped and raped Anne Reardon, Patrick's seventeen-year old ward, in Christopher's unoccupied family home. They fooled her into thinking they'd let her go. They let her run away from them, they chased her, and she jumped out the window and died later from her injuries. He fooled Elizabeth and their mother into believing he was innocent but Elizabeth always had doubts. I find Christopher to be one interesting character, the most interesting of the entire story.

Patrick, who'd met Anne briefly at a ball or something the previous year, was very angry at her for covering for her brother, whom he believed responsible for Anne's death. He broke into her bedroom one night, demanding to know where her brother fled after the trial. She wouldn't give him any information so he raped her (p. 89), after slapping her for struggling. That's his only violence toward her in the story.

For me, the story went downhill from there and became very boring. They got married because she was in a desperate situation. Patrick had been considering marrying Miora Ashley, a wealthy twenty-seven year old widow back in Ireland. I'm not sure why he wanted to marry Elizabeth. He didn't really feel any affection toward her and though she brought a dowry to the marriage, he had much more to gain by marring Miora. Miora became his mistress only after realizing she could no longer marry him, since he was married to Elizabeth. She disappeared from the story for awhile and was brought back to give the readers a suspect for an event that caused Patrick, Elizabeth, and Colin to flee to the West Indies.

The most boring part of all was when Patrick, Elizabeth, and his half-brother Colin were forced to flee the West Indies (after already having to flee England because Patrick was caught planning an uprising against England) and settled in America (Pennsylvania). There they had to live off the land and it made for dull reading. Not much happened the entire few years they lived there until Elizabeth got bad news about Patrick that lead me to believe they wouldn't have a happy ending.

Something eventful, a few confessions, happened near the end involving a secondary character that I didn't see coming. This person had lied about several important things and were involved in murder because they were angry and jealous of another person. I felt a little sad for them at the end.

It was mentioned very early on that Patrick and Colin were responsible for Anne's father Tim's death in a boating accident but the reason for that was never given. We weren't told if the death was intentional or not.

I don't think Patrick ever told Elizabeth that he loved her though she did overhear him once talking out loud about loving her. He never showed affection toward her or gave the impression that he was interested in her at all.

Overall, this wasn't an interesting love story and damnit, I'm disappointed.